Let Light Out
Sometimes when I am walking outside and there is a break in the clouds, the sun bathes me in soft rivers of light and I feel beautiful. Not the kind of beautiful I feel when I put on red lipstick and an expensive dress, or when I am asked for my number by a boy with eyes like swimming pools. As I check the mirror one last time for smudges or fumble with his touchscreen keyboard, the butterflies that form in my stomach only prove that inside of me, there is emptiness. But in this moment when there is a break in the clouds, I feel full. Although this fullness does not make me heavy; instead, I become weightless. The physical body is but flesh and bone that cuts and bleeds. Light, however, represents the intangible, taking root deep within. But rather than treating light as a guest, many of us have held it captive like a prisoner behind the bars of our ribcages. In an effort to be free, it dances on the music notes of our voices as we sing, and when we smile it radiates from our mouths; beams of light crack through the gaps in our teeth like rays of sunshine peaking through the blinds at sunrise. Sometimes I steal glances at the sky just long enough to allow the sun to burn its rounded image into the backs of my eyelids. But growing up, I was always told to never stare at the sun for if I do, I shall go blind. They have tried to distract our eyes by pressing our noses into the pages of magazines, allowing the ink of advertisements to rub off and stain our minds with the dark hues of societal expectation. But what if I don’t want to resemble the stick-like models on the television screen, and would prefer my hips to curve in harmony with the sun’s rounded silhouette? There is something sexy about jeans that are a tad snug at the waist, and the awkward exchanges that are made at the bar before anyone has had their first drink. Our bodies, similarly to our sober thoughts, are but manifestations of our inner light. Understand the essence beauty, as it cannot be taken from you or drained like the battery of an iPhone 4 with iOS7. The only thing that can truly be altered is your perception.